Desperate

My heart is in my stomach...I just don't know what to do. I can't sleep... I need to sleep. I need to escape this.

Tick tock tick tock...

Time is killing me with its hands....

Photo of the day

You are a ray of sunshine on a cloudy day : )

Monday, Sept 21

I've got nothing new to say,
Except I think I've had enough.

September 1st

Its 1:11 am on a Monday morning. In fact its the first day of September.
Tonight I feel nice. Nice. I feel like myself.
There is a cool breeze coming in the window meeting the warm glow of the paper lanterns that provide just enough light to sketch and delve into my creative side on paper.
The night is my muse... with songs quietly singing to my heart.
I believe these moments came straight from Heaven. I will take advantage of this gift.

I dreamt...

....about Edward Cullen last night.
No jokes.
It was fabulous.

Kevin..i still love you more.

Today...

.....the sun is only shining outside my window.
The light is not coming in.
What is my purpose? Where am I going?
What is with this deflated, fearful and distraught version of my former self?
What does God want from me? Why does He feel so far away....
I am so confused, so lost.