Same as always

Why do moods have to fluctuate so constantly? You think your ok one minute, and the next your not. I'm sorry to those who have been reading these blogs and the reocurring theme is just depressing. One thing in your life can make all the difference. Something may be a burden to one person but a treasure to the next. Or its just the situations we're stuck in creates the illusion that this aspect is something we need or we don't need. Like a relationship...maybe we're hurting so much we think we need it. Or maybe we're soo frusterated with a relationship, we think we dont need it. What is the real truth? When God no longer seems like someone you can trust, where do you go? Maybe I'm being strong, showing my true feelings..or maybe I'm just a coward to find the truth if there is such. I don't mean to contradict what I've said in the past. I feel like I'm running in circles...stuck in a maze with no start or no end. Just hoping to find some sort of revolution. If anyone saw Paul Wall's name tonight......
The truth is..I think the reason that I can't figure anything out..or how i feel about anything is because I dont even know me. I dont know what i want, I dont have any direction. Hell, I dont even like the person I am for the most part. I need to find a place, where I can either face my problems or run from them. Oh God, What do I do? Is this a lost cause...do I just give in? Or is there still a chance at a sliver of happiness..


Wings to Fly

She sits in the corner, crying out in desperation,
As the last sliver of light fades to black,
What feels right to her, no one will understand,
In this place of doubt, in this place of fear,
The only real she knows,

This angel's losing her wings,
Can't anyone see, Can't anyone see,
She' can't go forward, but she can't go back,
With no wings to fly, There she will lie,
Watch her fall,
As this angel loses her wings,

Don't bother her now, what is the point,
She's shut herself out from it all,
Don't give your hand , to nothing in return,
Tormenting this , chaotic sanctuary,
Confuse the real she knows,