If your an avid LOTR fan...you know what I'm talking about. Helms Deep.
The fortress in which many men take refuge before the great fight against Sauron's army.
I'm hiding there..afraid of the battle. I'm afraid of reality. I'm afraid that if i go out, I'll be struck down by it. I'm afraid that relationships will fail, and brokeness will continue to pierce my heart like a relentless sword..
I'm afraid of all relationships. I'm shutting people out because I don't want to get hurt anymore.
I hate this.. I'm building walls and I can't stop myself. By the time I'm done I won't be able to see a Bright light in the east even if it comes.
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Oh my dear girl, this is understandable. Your heart has been hurt so badly and when we hurt, we defend.
But think about the analogy you used. Helm's Deep has a weakness, and the light comes with help because the place that was used as refuge was not as strong as it seemed. Look for it in those who love you. An most importantly, the ONE who loves you.
I can't force you out of anything, but know I love you dear one. And I'll be there when you need, whenever you need.
I want to say something, but I can't, knowing that there really are no words. I know you know that there are people who will hunker down with you in this storm, so just keep that in mind. So I am praying for you and thinking about you and rooting for you. I'm a phone call away if you need. But I know you know that.
I know I'm far away, but you know that I also love you, and it is hard to realize that you are building those walls up but you and I both know it's way harder to tear them down later on. Anyway, I'm praying for you too darling, keep your chin up!
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