Birthdays - always make you think of the future hey?
I really liked the number 21. It meant - legal in all countries but held the idealism that you are just BARELY an adult. 22 is cool but not as comfy as 21.
some of you (whom I already have talked with) will be telling me to shut my mouth as I'm one of the youngest in the group but you were obviously here once too.
You know what my dream was as a kid? to be a teenager!!!! what the sam was wrong with me?!?! haha. Now I just laugh at myself. it just looked like such a cool world to me and I wanted to be part of it. who wants to grow up when being a kid? honestly, I wish i could sit down and talk with my kid self and explain what the teenage years were really like.
So you can guess what i wanted to do when I was an adolescent, be an adult. I wanted to escape the highschool drama and move on with my life. Find a husband, get married, have kids (the typical winkler lifestyle - not that there is anything wrong with it) END OF STORY.
And thats what I pretty much tried to do: write the end of my story. I thought life could be better than what God was giving me.
Humans!!! Who do we think we are?!?!
So now I'm an adult. Highschool drama did not dissapear as I thought it would, some has followed me to this day. I'm a couple years older dealing with alot of the same issues plus new ones. Once again, I wish I could sit down with my adolescent self and tell her about where I am today.
Now I understand this is sounding fairly negative. But this is where it changes.
Everything has changed. I'm aware of my desire for something other than the ending I had written for myself earlier in life. Of course God has played the biggest role in this and kicked me back into my place - as His follower. But not only that, I'm working to not depend on what I think the future will be but realizing how awesome the present is.
And it IS awesome. God has blessed me so incredibly. Just this morning, I woke up full of joy realizing I'm so lucky to just be who I am. I have awesome friends, a great church to attend and the sun is shining brighter than ever outside my window.
In an age where its time to think about the future more than ever I am rebelling.
Who says I have to grow up in the next couple years? 22? 24? 25?
God sure doesn't. He requires only that we Love, Praise and serve Him in each day we live out starting with today.
In 2 days I turn 22. But, I love today.
"My mouth is filled with your praise, declaring your
splendor all day long"
Psalms 71:8
