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8 months.... I can't believe the things I've heard, done and seen over this amount of time.
I've come to accept the fact that this time of life is meant to be an adventure. I found I woke up every day for months thinking that things were finally going to settle, but they didn't.
In fact in this moment, I feel more unsettled then I did in the last. Maybe its the preparation for a new life with Kevin, maybe its the years of university coming to a close. Maybe I just feel very unprepared for all that awaits. I actually think I'm very afraid of whats around the corner.
For those of you who have known me for years, you know that growing up I was always up for a challenge. I loved not knowing what would happen next. I thrived on change.
I think I'm having a hard time adjusting to this new me...maybe I don't want to be this person.
I sort of feel distant from most things including God... we haven't been on the best terms recently.
I need answers.... I need my life back. I feel like I'm waiting for something, yet dreading whatever that is....
I feel like there is a train going around and around in my head...its going so fast its leaving destruction in its wake. But its going too fast for anyone to get on, no one can make sense of where its going or why its even doing what its doing......